i ♥ MinHo

good-bye

2005-01-19T10:39:00.000+08:00

i'm stopping this blog. just because i'm neglecting S-Talk, plus i think i'm gonna open back up my ever dearest site ~ this one!

so, goodbye!

belated

2005-01-12T17:20:00.000+08:00

belated happy brithday oppa... you're 24 yrs old ~ so old, haha, just kidding!! ^^ Had fun in Osaka like I did?!

I cried myself to sleep last Sunday. Kind-of worried too much on what's gonna happen but i guess i was wrong. Or i'm just playing naive about the things that's happening around me. I think this is for the better. I was reading chapter 46 of Da Vinci Code & I was crying really hard & loud... some people at the dorm who heard/saw me probably was thinking "she's so into the story...", "what the fuck?! i didn't know da vinci code was supposed to be a a heartfelt novel???" But Gladly, I finished reading Da Vinci Code yesterday! Disappointed, not exactly the ending i expected. I started reading Sunday ~ I read too fast. I hate it.

guess where i am?

complicated

2005-01-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

emotional stress level: HIGH!
insanity level: tolerable
mood: depressed
tune: 20041224 KBS-R Brian Joo DJ-ing + SaRangHaeDoDwelGgaYo

i have a lot of fics waiting for me to rate them but instead of reading those, i'm now on Solid07 reading a different fic & reading Da Vinci Code during non-computer hours... ~ sorry SeoHee but I'll try to make the deadline ^^

i have sent the letters to Fina & Jen earlier. i hope it'll reach them by next week.

i have to go back to SM Bicutan tomorrow for the broken cd-r, i hope they'll still replace it! Then i ~~have~~ want to get the dvd-rw installed on my pc before getting stuff from Marie. Then fix my dorm stuff because i'll be moving in there once again this Sunday afternoon. Of course clean my room, it's been a mess since i got here for Christmas vacation.

*sigh* i am going through some terrible things right now. i so got myself in a very fucked-up mess & i don't know how to get out of it. should i start seeking for professional help? jim oppa have been a big help lately (thanks oppa!). as for my angel, i know you're under a tough situation too, i really appreciate the help, friendship & love you're sharing with me. I hope someday (if not today) I can be of great help to you too. i don't want to be "detaily" here because remebering all those only brings me to tears. i have to think straight from now on. a lot of people were affected because of my unwise decisions. i guess i've been thinking that i'm in some kind of movie that whenever i don't want the scene i can press fast forward & when i love the scene i can always rewind it, i can't get myself to face the fact that the only button i can press is play. or maybe i read too much fiction stories that somehow made myself think that everything goes well in the end.

i wanted to write more but my situation doesn't permit me to.

i have to...

2005-01-05T18:13:00.000+08:00

http://tsunamihelp.blogspot.com/

it never actually occured to me at first that this is something serious. but seeing a more than 100,000 people (died/missing/hurt) are affected, i dunno but something tells me this is the best thing to do & pray for them.

some photos

2005-01-04T03:49:00.000+08:00

me + the "amore" ring (amore = lover); there said to be a curse behind that ring... but i dunno, tita marla never had the time to tell me, oh well its been on my thumb since september 25, 2004 & never then it was removed from my thumb...

me & my sister... she looks more like mom & i look more like dad, but some says we do look alike! WTF?!!!

its been a while... i'm still into YunHo <3

but of course, i will never forget my love! he's the rest of my life!

i would have wanted to place a KangTa photo here to complete my K-Pop obsession bet it's almost 5 in the morning & i need to get some sleep!!! ^_^

bored

2005-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

so i just got myself surfing from one forum to another... i have nothing better to do. pretty fucked up because the day after tomorrow classes will once again start for me. boohoo. my car is being stupid, just because i wasn't able to use if for 2 days its not starting ~ the battery got discharged or something & i have to go back to my dormitory by tomorrow. how the hell will i do that if the fucking car wont start. ninang is not saying anything about the car but i'm sure she will somehow... she'll be like, "it's your responsibility. it's your car. blah blah" urgh. whatever.

talked to mom for like good 'ol 3 minutes this morning & she's like "don't stay up late watching non-sense, save money, me & your dad are working our ass off here for your future blahs" same old shit to me. i know that already. that's how our conversation always goes whenever she/dad calls from CA. i'm never going back there.

i think i'll ditch school on tuesday & come back on wednesday?! i'm pretty much behind fly to the sky & dong bang shin ki goodies from all my lovely forums... have to get dsl soon!!! i'm pretty much broke for netopia. i've like invested my future in netopia, if only they'll give me credits or something. aigoo, my head hurts ! lack of sleep.

yay!

2005-01-02T02:43:00.000+08:00

hooray, i've finally come around & made a new layout!!! This is the product of my undying love for Brian, who is by the way in Japan right now with his brother and some relatives plus this fucking whore who went to bed & got it on with him.

so anyway, aside from the part that i woke up around 2 pm & got myself busy in front of the computer surfing the net for the next 2 & a half hour... i decided to have a drink with my sister Maanne & my brother-in-law. during then i got so pissed of at MaYan who is so retarted & doesn't want to have her computer fixed up tomorrow and instead wants to go to her friends house for some 'school project'? school project at January 2 with her non-classmate-friends? what the fuck was that all about???!!! if i know they'll spend their day talking about this guy and that guy from class/school who has a crush in this girl & that bitch! ok, so maybe i am too harsh on MaYan. i still can't get over the fact that she used MY computer when i was out last tuesday WITHOUT asking me. Yes i am selfish. only because it's MY computer. if ever you're reading this - I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE MY SISTER, FUCK YOU!

happy new year

2005-01-01T17:09:00.000+08:00

current mood: ; awake
listening to: September - Fly to the Sky {feat. KimJoHan}

i woke up around 2 pm. i am a loser! ahaha, its new year & i'm in front of my computer!!! well, where else will i go if i've got no money, eh? yeah.

yeah i have several layouts to finish: here, s-talk, twistd & onjena... i've been procrastinating a lot lately! my uncle asked me to make a site for him & i made it in less than a day & i can't finish a layout for my other blog/sites... weird huh?

we celebrated new year safely! meaning no one was hurt except our purrty ears from all those blasting fireworks during new years eve. paul asked me to come by his house for the evening but i have no intention to, what could have happened if i've gone there? i don't want to know. i feel sorry for my brother and sister though, this is the second new year that we celebrate it without mom & dad. i can feel they're lonely but don't wanna talk about it. i played with my brother all night and my sister locked herself up in her room that night, good thing she decided to celebrate new year's eve with us.

because he's mine & i love him big!

& i still love him even though he looks so aDORKable!

fly to the sky won sbs gayo daejun best rnb !!! yay for them!!! =D

post-christmas

2004-12-28T01:28:00.000+08:00

so christmas is over & it just passed by like any ordinary day (at least for me), i'm so broke ~ i only have Php700 on my wallet now + some useless coins w/c will obviously get me to nowhere. i hate having no money to spend, well who doesn't?!

it's 12:30 am right now & i had this agreement with MaYan that we'll go jogging around 5:30 in the morning > goodluck to me in waking up. gah, i just hope she doesnt wake up so i don't have to wake up... i hate waking up early!

my computer is once again infected by some stupid spyware... i hate spywares!

i hate everyone in this damn house. i wish christmas break would be off soon so i can spend my weekdays away from here & that i'll have money to spend at least.

i'm off to see my dentist tomorrow after lunch ~ another horrible day!

christmas time!

2004-12-25T01:55:00.000+08:00

its freakin 2 a.m. & i'm sorta drunk but i have to check my mail so i decided to drop some lines here on my blog...

drop

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some lines, ahahahaha

yeah, i'm having double vision & my computer is actually dancing now & it took me sometime to actually type this whole thing so i think i better go..

gah, i think i'm gonna puke!!!

happy christmas everyone <3

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2004-12-23T13:42:00.000+08:00

"Love is like getting laid for the first time. Your all so happy and shy when u do it, but afterwards all you have is regret because you wished you waited or you wished it could of been with someone else."

I HATE CHRISTMAS!

pucha.

2004-12-16T01:05:00.000+08:00

nakakainis ha, lahat na ata ginawa ko para maayos 'tong computer sa bahay pero ano, sintu-sinto parin!!! urgh! &*^@&)(#^

ang mas nakakainis pa ako lang ang gumagawa ng paraan eh dalawa kaming gumagamit ng computer na 'to. shit!

hindi kaya ng powers ko na ayusin 'to. ayoko na!!!

cheater

2004-12-10T13:52:00.000+08:00

"its better to cheat than to repeat"

i think that's what i'm bound to do next week... next week? prelim examination! urgh!!!

so i ditched class once again, i only came to my first class yesterday & now i didn't attend any of my class... i really have no intention of failing all my classes but what can i do -> i don't feel like studying anymore.

So anyway, i ate @ 'Sarabol' today... a Korean restaurant! First time? Yes. I don't know what to order... but i tried 'bulgokee' and stir fried vegetables plus large soda, & it satisfied my tummy... I'm full! ^_^

dear christopher,

2004-12-04T13:14:00.000+08:00

Chirstopher Robin is "Winnie" the Pooh's best friend. Typhoon "Winnie" already left but then along came Super Typhoon "Yoyong". Classes was suspended last Thursday but i decided to stay in Cavite. I don't feel like going home... I went out to rent some movies. While I was walikng towards Walter Mart, i was carrying an umbrella with me, it was raining but i don't feel like using it. I remembered before, when we went out one time. It was raining too, and on your way to pick me up I told you to bring an umbrella but you said it doesn't matter. And you were right, when you got here it stopped raining. But last thursday the rain continued to fall 'til midninght, maybe it actually didn't stop because it was still raining friday morning when i woke up. My family back in Alabang was worried, there is a super typhoon here in the Philippines and I am all alone in the dormitory. That's when i decided to go back home, whew. I am worried too, Chris, where are you? how are you? i miss you... i...

...best friends?

my love

2004-11-27T18:47:00.000+08:00

...i have nothing else to write

credit: fly012

i hate you SM

2004-11-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

waaah, i seriously want this!!!

credits: ilikepop.com

SBSK Project!

2004-11-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

i don't want these to go to waste... urgh!

//save picture to see its original size

...only 5 TVfXQ

2004-11-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

there are only 5 TVfXQ!
- JunSu, YooChun, ChangMin, JaeJoong & YunHo -
for more info >> sbsk.net

//i'm sorry Paolo, i care for you a lot because you're my only brother but i have to do something... ^^

marking my territory

2004-11-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

Ragnaboarder's Place

just because i love my sister! ^_~

Farewell DongKi's

2004-11-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

mood: ; depressed
listen: yahoo launch radio

i don't feel like putting this up @ asian-idols;

i'm on the verge of crying right now... there will be no more dongbangshinki!

well not exactly... they will be rotated. so basically these will be the last where i can see YunHo, JaeJoong, ChangMin, YooChun & JunSu TOGETHER:

>> hug international cd+dvd
>> japanese miduhyo album
>> 3rd storybook
>> winter smtown

then no more.

WHAT THE FUCK???!!!

& to think i even got a new name for them - dong ki's just because dong bang shin ki is a really long name & tvxq is just @!*(&#@&^$ ~yeah, so i decided to call them dong ki's but but but DONG KI's no more!!!

i saw the new members that will be rotated & well they're not THAT bad... & since they're from SM ~ they'll be probably as good as the ORIGINAL DONG KI's! so i guess i will still support them, or should i?

gawddemmitdosumthin'

honesty...

2004-11-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

mood:; content
listen: the sound of the fan @ nebo (i-net caf)

"all i ask is just a little honesty
and though i know that you're not coming back to me
you know i'll do anything to make you stay
but i just have to let you go..
if the feeling is gone"

i've been hearing that song lately. someone, obviously have no idea who, remade the song.

i saw you today, i really thought we'll be in the same class, thank God that we're NOT! it's unfair for me for dissing you just like that but i have my reason. the same reason as before; i think you very well know by now WHY, if not, WELL YOU SHOULD. I'm sorry! I'm sorry that i ever i met you.

do you believe in angels? well i do. I have two angels in disguise; first is Monna ~ after all that we've been through, she's still there for me. then there's Rachelle.

I woke up late this morning, but I was able to make it on time for my first class. Only, I don't know where. 'What room?' I checked my schedule ~ Thursday 8:30-10:30 ERH___. I went to ERH building, I'm pretty confident that even if the room# is blank I can find my room, i searched the whole building twice - i can't find any familiar face from BCS 31, fuck, i'm lost. Then I went to OSH building, still NONE. i give up. I decided to go to my dormitory... on my way back, I was planning not to attend my first class. 'I'll finish making the turtles' that's what's on my mind. Almost near, I met Rachelle... my thoughts got interrupted. Then i decided to go to class instead. Whew!

There's so much things that's going on my mind right now. I can't organize my thoughts. I am freaking distrub with the large pimple that continuously grows on my freaking nose & the fucking spacebar here @ nebo.

Shit/

home sweet home

2004-11-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

mood: ; tired
listen: Nuh Eh Geh Sseu Neun Pyun Ji {Letter to You} by MC Mong/Lyn

i don't know.

i got my dongbangshingi albums today, it arrived last friday but i've been really packed with school + other stuff so i just got the chance to get it at the post office today. then i pm-ed tintin & michelle. i showed my sister when i got home...

mars: "is this original?"

mai: "yeah"

mars: "oh..."

what kind of reaction was that? i spent almost Php 3,000 for that freakin albums and what do i get? an "oh"! its not even an excited "oh", it was a stupid blank "oh" expression from my sister... but i still love you!

talked to dad on chat, he & mom will talk about the dsl connection (this weekend) that i have been wishing since April, make it a Christmas gift for me dear mom & dad, thank you in advance.

i have a class @ 8:30 am tomorrow; i have homework on Computer Programming 5 & Physics 2. i didn't do both. i don't know the answer because i'm simply not listening in class.

i made a blog for my favorite people in the world. the url? its for you guys to find out!

i will meet tintin on Friday evening; i have a dentist appointment on Saturday + meet jayne @ G4; i still have to get the radio/alarm clock fixed; i want to watch 'because of you' <- baduy na kung baduy, ah ewan!

i don't have money! i'm not yet done with the turdles + fan letters... i don't know how much to donate for the sbsk project?! i made another inquiry today:

phil.postal - 1kg = Php1,500

fedex - 0.5kg = Php2,300

what the? i can buy A LOT of things on those... darn, i can't ask my parents for help, they'll be like..

<- dad / mom ->

i deleted all old entries because.

just for the record: happy birthday kaye!!! {nov.15}

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